Today I got my copy of the Marigold Tarot deck and I was so excited that I did a couple free readings on Twitter right away. I was amazed at how relevant to the questions the cards were. This feels like a very focused deck and definitely more on the blunt side! The images are very inspiring and I feel like I can intuit more of a message myself rather than relying on my books to shine a light on the meanings therein.

I backed this deck on KS back around when I first started getting into tarot cards. I just knew that this deck would be The One and I'm so glad that it didn't disappoint. It's even better in person than I thought it would be. It shuffles like a dream and I feel so connected to it. I'm in love.

I'm getting more and more comfortable with doing tarot card readings for others. Sometimes I worry that my advice/reading is too generic, but I just can't get super in-depth for people I don't know very well. I think that the fact that I drew that particular card (or cards) for them is already a message from the universe. I provide my interpretation based on what I see and what I know, but they're free to draw their own conclusions.

To me, tarot is a tool to help illuminate the depths of your own mind and heart. The cards provide a fresh perspective to a problem or guide you towards a decision that, deep down, is already made. I don't think they predict the future and I don't rely on them for that. So when I answer questions for people, I try to phrase them in that way, too. I can't tell somewhat what their future will be with absolute certainty, but I can remind them of something to consider—something that will make their future better.

I hope to become even more skilled and eloquent when it comes to the cards over time. I think this is the deck that will help me achieve that and I'm excited to hone my craft and grow with it in my spiritual toolbox.

Receiving this deck really brightened what would have been otherwise a pretty dull, busy day. I had a lot of trouble getting out of bed this morning. I am probably still lacking in sleep. I am stressed from work.

The first wave of the Without a Voice beta test has been going well and I do believe I've finally struck the right points:ending balance. It will be interesting to see how the next two waves handles it. We've planned three waves: the first, which is just friends/people we know to go over gameplay while we continue coding in/finishing assets. The second wave will be once I'm done coding in all the sprite expressions. The third and last will be when everything is done, shortly before we plan to release. We don't predict a lot of things will need to be changed during the last wave, but you never know what might come up at the last minute and it will be nice to get impressions on the "final product" before it gets shipped out.

This game has been such a labor of love and I'm so excited to share it.

Sadly, I don't think I'm going to be able to do Pastel Jam this weekend because I accidentally left my tablet at Kiki's place. I thought about doing simple drawings on my phone, but that's just not really want to want to do right now. It's a workaround and an annoying one at that. If I have to compromise, I'd rather not. Instead, I'm going to stop myself from spreading myself too thin. I need to focus on the things I need to focus on right now without getting overly excited about starting new projects. There will be plenty of time in my life for new proejcts and ideas.

I recently pledged to one of my artistic heroes Yumi Sakugawa on Patreon. She's been dropping all sorts of truth bombs and creatively-inclined things that I need to hear. I wish I could share more, but I'm not sure what the etiquette is for quoting things that are behind a paywall. I don't want to be "pirating" that content or anything... I hope she doesn't mind if I share just a little bit of her post that really resonated with me today:

Learn to keep your own word. Build integrity and self-trust with yourself. When you say you are going to do something, really believe in yourself and follow through.

That's so important. It takes 21 days to form a habit—and only a moment to break it. So even when it's hard, even when you don't really want to, you have to follow through on things. Not for your audience, not for anyone else but for yourself. Because once you fall off the bandwagon, deep inside you'll have convinced yourself that that behavior is okay. And with that complacency, you'll never get anything done and never change yourself for the better. I like that she calls it integrity. The post is literally titled "Do you have integrity with yourself?" Integrity with yourself. That really is the most important kind.