My relatives are coming up this weekend for the 4th of July and I'm so excited to see them. I haven't seen some of my cousins in months. I've always been close with my cousins—they're basically like siblings to me. Now that we're all adults, it's easier to meet up in the sense that we can just get in a car and drive to each other without relying on the whims of our parents. Buuut our meet-ups are reliant on everyone's job schedules or where we happen to be living right now. One of my cousins spent a couple years in California and we rarely got to see her then. Nowadays we're mostly all in Texas again, but we're pretty spread out. My brother and I are here in Dallas, but most of my other cousins live in Houston or Austin. That's a 3 hour drive for Austin and 4-6 hours for Houston, so it doesn't make for an easy meet-up...

My brother and I have been trying to plan events and things for us to do when everyone's here. It's tricky when not everyone's over 21 yet. We'd hate to leave some of our younger cousins out just because they're not terrible jaded adults like the rest of us yet, ahaha. I hope I have some money saved up so we can all have a good time. There's been talk of going to a waterpark... I'm not super excited about that[1], but it'll be fun with my cousins there.

The sad part about this is that I requested off at work for the weekend and I got it, but that means all my days off are stacked towards the end of the week. I normally get to enjoy days off between only 1-2 days of work. I like it that way. Tomorrow will be my 4th day in a row of work and it's so tiring during the busy season of summer. I thought about going in early on my next day off to do a few hours of extra time for more $$$ but I might not do it, after all. The money is nice, but so is being able to rest. I did manage to pay off the doll head I had on layaway so this beautiful boy will be mine soon... Now I've got two floating heads, so I really need to start saving up for a body.

I read this cool Naomi Novik interview earlier. She's got a new book coming out, which of course I've already pre-ordered. There's a nice quote from the article that I like:

[With fiction] you are making up lies to tell people something true.

It reminds me of a quote from Sound Horizon:

This tale is a work of fiction. However, this doesn't mean everything will be fictional.

Fiction just seeks to describe events that did not truly occur in a world that most certainly does exist. Even science fiction and fantasy reflect a real world. That's why it's hard for me to separate the author from their work. Yes, if there is a character who is an awful murderer, it may not mean that the author wishes to kill people. But if the book is lacking in representation, if the voices of women or minority characters are written in a prejudiced or ignorant manner, it's impossible for me to enjoy them anymore. Nowadays it's pretty rare for me to even pick up a book with a male main character... I've just had enough. Most of my life, I've enjoyed media that's strictly written from a male POV with a male gaze. I'd just like to read more things that are written with people with me in mind for a change.

I've just got to hang in there for a little while and I can enjoy a fun time with my cousins! I wish everyone a wonderful week.


  1. It's been SO HOT. I just can't get excited about spending time outdoors. ↩︎